Green Room - Week 27 - Day 1

[clauderainsrm.livejournal.com]

When I got into work yesterday, one of the new temps was on the breakroom computer, and stayed there for the entire 15-20 minutes that I had between the time I get in and when I need to start work.

Needless to say, someone almost died yesterday morning. :)

Instead of risking it, I'm putting something up before I leave. Which means no insights, but then again, I haven't had a lot of insights lately. Just watching developments as people who say they aren't serious/have self esteem issues fight with tooth and claw to get ahead. It's always interesting when you see that. Maybe that is an insight into human nature - to never admit that deep down, you *do* think you are someone special with something to offer. You just can't say it outloud.

At any rate, the new topic is up: http://therealljidol.livejournal.com/467314.html I hope people have a lot of fun with it! Then again, if that's my idea of "fun", maybe I shouldn't unleash my idea of actual torture. :)

Comments

[comedychick.livejournal.com]

I was nuts and already wrote my entry and posted it. :O

(This is, of course, an advantage to my timezone).

[i-17bingo.livejournal.com]

CHEATER!

[applespicy.livejournal.com]

OMG, I am still puzzling helplessly over where to even start! Get it, girl.

[pixiebelle.livejournal.com]

You are nuts!

But I already knew that... I say it with nothing but love though <3

[nyxocity.livejournal.com]

You ARE insane! *G* Go you!

Sorry I missed you last night. I was watching SoA until the wee hours.

[java-fiend.livejournal.com]

Was nuts? :-p

[i-17bingo.livejournal.com]

So, until I actually looked it up, I thought this was what the topic was about (http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-4114397127563559102#).

[mstrobel.livejournal.com]

That makes more sense to me ;)

[comedychick.livejournal.com]

LOL, I love it. My entry is all about how I didn't know what the topic was. :P

[nyxocity.livejournal.com]

Mahnamahna!

You know, it really does sound similar! :D

[applespicy.livejournal.com]

I'll be honest and say that I pretty much secretly think I'm bad-ass at just about everything I do, even if I'm obviously not. There are certain areas in my life where I'm really hard on myself, but for the most part I tend to think that I'm awesome and it's just that nobody else realizes it! I think that this is a survival mechanism left over from my lazy days of high school. You know, "Oh, I could have made an A in that class, I know I'm smart... I just didn't care."

Ha!

Basically, I'm a loser and an egomaniac all rolled into one?

[comedychick.livejournal.com]

I feel like I could have left this exact same comment.

[roina-arwen.livejournal.com]

I hear ya, and feel much the same way.

My apathy, let me show you it.

[roina-arwen.livejournal.com]

It's topics like that, Gary, that make me happy I don't have to write them, LOL.

I'm up and heading off to take a much-needed shower. I should have taken a shower yesterday, but alas I overslept so had to rush off to work without one. Since my hair felt dirty to me, I put it up into a ponytail... then got compliments on my hairdo, as I rarely wear it up, LOL. The one bonus to slightly greasy hair is that it slicks back into a ponytail better, heh.

If I get out of here and off of FB early enough, I hope to stop by Panera and buy my team mates some bagels, just because. If not, I won't - they won't know my evil carb plans!

[comedychick.livejournal.com]

I need to wash my hair too. Meant to do it today but it kinda didn't happen, what with having to look after kiddly-winks.

If you end up with any spare bagels, would be lovely if you could zap one through the Internets to me :D

[vaguelyclear.livejournal.com]

You know, Gary, you forced me to dig up my old Philosophy notes to re-familiarise myself with the topic. Making me do extra work - I hope you're happy!

In all seriousness, I think this week is going to prove to be extra special, and I can't wait to see what everyone comes up with. Especially since I really feel that if you have no idea what the topic is, what it refers to, it might prove difficult to work with. So yeah, looking forward to seeing where people take it!

I'm also looking forward to almost being done with my semester. Just one more class and one more assignment, and then I'm freeeeeee. YAY!

[comedychick.livejournal.com]

Woohoo! Party! After class, obviously. It'll be great to have that break.

And yeah, I'm rather intrigued to see where everyone else takes the topic.

[hosticle-fifer.livejournal.com]

I totally had to google this week's topic. I are teh smart.

"Something that is known without using the senses", huh? Could be some interesting and fertile ground here for everyone.

[nyxocity.livejournal.com]

I think everyone had to Google it :D I even had to Google it more than once, to be sure I was understanding it right.

[pixiebelle.livejournal.com]

I'll be honest...this weeks topic kinda confuses me. I think I already have an idea that totally came to me earlier in the week. I thought of something I wanted to write and figured I'd try to keep it in mind for next season. But I'm thinking it totally fits this week. Or I could totally be wrong about what the topic means, so I'll read more into it today to be sure. Wouldn't it be cool if I was right though?!?

I probably shouldn't be around the GR as much today...my job is going to keep me terribly busy trying to get caught up on stuff today. I kinda forgot I came back in the middle of the week and thought I had plenty of time for stuff. Oops :$

[nyxocity.livejournal.com]

This week's topic IS confusing. I had to look it up, and then I spent a good ten minutes thinking about how it wasn't really possible to write anything about it and keep the subject pure. But I'm going to stop there before I go getting too philosophical. I need more coffee, first! :)

That would be cool, and I hope it does work out for you!

[alephz.livejournal.com]

Man, I'm SO looking forward to seeing what all is brought out for this time 'round. The topic is just so immensely cool.

[lawchicky.livejournal.com]

I actually had an idea I was thinking to write which could fit into the topic, but I'm not sure how to achieve it yet. I think I need a second day/night to think on it and then I'll try writing it. This is a rough one!

[pixiebelle.livejournal.com]

I'm with you! I think my idea fits, but I need time to think on it first...

Good luck with it!

[talon.livejournal.com]

Gary, major props on the topic -- makes me wish I were still in ;)

[nyxocity.livejournal.com]

Home game it! I miss your entries.

[nyxocity.livejournal.com]

I gotta say, that although I intend to try and write something for the topic this week, I'm REALLY glad I'm not under pressure to do so, because, wow. I'm kind of at a loss. I do look forward to seeing what everyone comes up with though.

I think I'm a badass ninja mostly. Excepting those times when I do stupid things. Like miss obvious deadlines. :D But I think we all exist in the dichotomy of thinking we're awesome while simultaneously thinking we suck. I think they call that the human condition ;)

[pixiebelle.livejournal.com]

I think you're right about the human condition for the most part...except when it comes to some people like myself :P

I hope you home game it! That would be awesome!

[amenquohi.livejournal.com]

I just keep saying "noumenon" and this (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h5Mc55P1i9g) keeps playing in my head.

[roina-arwen.livejournal.com]

Is that Sandra Bullock? I like that take on the Mnah-Mnah song!

[java-fiend.livejournal.com]

I think most everybody is somebody special and has something special to offer. Unless you're like Charlie Manson or Richard Ramirez or others of their ilk.

But I think we all bring something special, something unique and something awesome to the table. But I think that deep down, some of us were damaged somewhere along the line and have it in our heads that we're not special, we're not unique and we're not awesome. The two sides within us battle and sometimes, that bad voice wins out because that's been our life experience. And to give voice to that inner-awesomeness is just unthinkable, uncomfortable and makes us feel all squicky. Because surely, those bad voices must be right. Right?

But they're not. Those bad voices that wear us down, break us and make us believe that we have nothing special to offer are just plain wrong. It's easier to give in, comply with the voices and continue the mantra that we're not good enough, smart enough and doggone, people don't like us. It's far more difficult to destroy those voices, own your inner-awesomeness and express it proudly.

But my belief is that we *all* are awesome. We *all* are unique. And we *all* have something special to offer. And anybody that tells you different can pucker up and kiss my lily white butt.

*steps down from soapbox*

[pixiebelle.livejournal.com]

*hugs* you already know that's pretty much the story of my life. Certain things out there aren't making it any better either right now.

[beldar.livejournal.com]

When I saw the topic I had to look it up, too. As I read it my inner Daffy Duck was saying to Gary: "You're, you're desthpicable!" Can't help but be happy I'm not in the running anymore.

And some folks here are obviously confused, linking the Muppet bit. "noumenon" is the OPPOSITE of "phenomenon" -- which is what always triggers the "manah-manah" response (at least in me).

As for self-esteem issues, I've often said that I suffer from both an inferiority complex and narcissism -- meaning tha I am the lump of crap that the universe revolves around!

[similiesslip.livejournal.com]

Snort! Your last sentence REALLY made me laugh. LOL!

Idol Dreams

[similiesslip.livejournal.com]

I've read before in the Green Room about people having Idol dreams. I've had "minor" ones before but the one last night was so vivid and clear it just sticks with me even now.

I think some of you know, my neighborhood (but not my home) is really messed up due to the tornado in our town on April 27th. Even though we have to replace our roof, we are ok. 4 houses down has to be bulldozed though.

Anyways, so tornadoes and how fragile life is is on my mind.

So in this very vivid dream I was at the home of a couple I know IRL and I dreamed that it was next season. I was talking to them (I have known them for a couple years) and they are like, "Oh, and we need to get our Idol entries in" and I said, "You play Idol?" And they were like, "Sure we write every week just like so and so and so and so and" the conversation revealed that just about everyone I know was playing Idol, but using LJ names so I didn't realize that it was THAT person when I read it.

It was a weird realization that something I enjoyed had "become big." Odd and cool. Suddenly, I had people IRL that I knew as crazy about LJ Idol as I was.

But then (in my dream) the tornado hit after I went home. My home was gone and I was walking down the street, trying to get somewhere safe where who drives up (in a garbage truck of all things) but Claudarism himself, looking just as he does on FB. He like runs up and is like, "I'm so glad you are OK...and that I can finally meet you" and he has me climb aboard the truck and who is riding along but, of course, Pixie and Java_fiend and Joey...several others of those still current contestants this season.

And here it is (in my dream) some of the worst moments of my life (my home is gone, I don't know where my family is) but I'm surrounded by Idolers (IRL) and we're all so happy to see each other finally that, in the midst of devestation...I feel everything is going to turn out ok after all. If I can have the Idol miracle of them all driving up to rescue me...maybe anything is possible after all.

And I woke up. But the dream is so real. I can still see all of us sitting on pieces of trees in the back of an empty garbage truck..all the smiles.

It was really odd. And it's late in the GR so maybe no one will read this anyways. But...I had to share it.

(And yes, I guess it shows I am kind of crazy. But that is how dreams are.)

Re: Idol Dreams

[pixiebelle.livejournal.com]

I read it :)

I don't think you're crazy at all. It actually made me smile thinking of us all helping you through such a rough time. Maybe it's not exactly a tornado, but I've seen people here come together when one of us is in need...be it virtual hugs for emotional support or saying nice things about you when you need it most. There's lots of good people here.

Considering the day I'm having, thank you for reminding me of that <3