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Green Room - Week 32 - Day 5
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clauderainsrm.livejournal.comApparently, all it took for me to face my previously white-knuckled holding on to the edge, fearing for your life terror of going underwater was having the now 9 year old that if I manage to continue to be the luckiest person on the planet might be my future "bonus daughter" tell me that she was going to teach me how to swim.
She was just so matter-of-fact about it, and so confident. I didn't want to let her down.
I went up to my mouth during the first bob... holding my breath on the second... then getting up to my nose... it took me a few tries, but I finally went all the way under.
It freaked me out. I won't lie about that.
It seriously freaked me out. But I did it again... and again... and again... over the course of an hour or so, and then a little more the following day, so that it wasn't just a fluke.
It's kind of weird to be admitting that I can't swim, and that it's taken me THIS long just to allow myself to go under - but we are in the business of sharing personal things around here. Which means every once in awhile, I need to show my human side. Possibly to lure you into a trap! ;)
Seriously though, it felt like I could do anything.
Although, I'll admit, I think *not* going under is still going to be my norm... I do hear goggles make the experience much better, so maybe I will try those - and learning to hold my breath longer!
If that wasn't enough for a weekend - there was another first... the first time that I helped make breakfast for "the family" in my girlfriend's new house. Maybe you know the feeling - maybe you don't... but that first time when you go from "someone who is around" to working side by side in the kitchen, and actually *being* a part of the household, if only for a little bit... Making the whole thing even *more* special for me was that I was there because it was the daughter's birthday - and she had *asked* me to stay to celebrate it with her! Yeah, that's the kind of stuff that makes your heart grow three sizes. :)
Anyway - enough about me! What's going on WITH YOU - and more importantly...
Do you know what it's like to face down your fears of the poll? http://therealljidol.livejournal.com/582723.html
She was just so matter-of-fact about it, and so confident. I didn't want to let her down.
I went up to my mouth during the first bob... holding my breath on the second... then getting up to my nose... it took me a few tries, but I finally went all the way under.
It freaked me out. I won't lie about that.
It seriously freaked me out. But I did it again... and again... and again... over the course of an hour or so, and then a little more the following day, so that it wasn't just a fluke.
It's kind of weird to be admitting that I can't swim, and that it's taken me THIS long just to allow myself to go under - but we are in the business of sharing personal things around here. Which means every once in awhile, I need to show my human side. Possibly to lure you into a trap! ;)
Seriously though, it felt like I could do anything.
Although, I'll admit, I think *not* going under is still going to be my norm... I do hear goggles make the experience much better, so maybe I will try those - and learning to hold my breath longer!
If that wasn't enough for a weekend - there was another first... the first time that I helped make breakfast for "the family" in my girlfriend's new house. Maybe you know the feeling - maybe you don't... but that first time when you go from "someone who is around" to working side by side in the kitchen, and actually *being* a part of the household, if only for a little bit... Making the whole thing even *more* special for me was that I was there because it was the daughter's birthday - and she had *asked* me to stay to celebrate it with her! Yeah, that's the kind of stuff that makes your heart grow three sizes. :)
Anyway - enough about me! What's going on WITH YOU - and more importantly...
Do you know what it's like to face down your fears of the poll? http://therealljidol.livejournal.com/582723.html
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