Green Room - Week 25 - Day 5

[clauderainsrm.livejournal.com]

And at the end of the day, I wish I could hear you say, we’re at the starting gate, and the voting is on again!! http://therealljidol.livejournal.com/562742.html

Which is definitely the most important thing that I have to share today. Because what could be more important than a vote? ;)

I was fortunate enough to have Survivor’s own Shane Powers (from Exile Island) select one of my questions to answer on the most recent Rob Has a Podcast. I’m mentioning this for a couple of reasons – first of all, to gloat. Because it’s awesome! At least I think so!!

Secondly though, I asked him what his proudest moment as a father was… and his answer was really awesome.

Which got me thinking about you guys – and a question that doesn’t get asked nearly enough – What is YOUR proudest moment (so far) as a person???

Comments

The brain, she does not wish to function.

[ellakite.livejournal.com]

You've seen me go on at length about my self-esteem issues, and how my mother's insane expectations of me contributed to them. Between that, and the fact that I've had a long exhausting day, I can't think of a single damned thing I'm truly proud of right now.

But at least I no longer have images of shameful, embarrassing incidents running through my mind right now. Once, not all that long ago, that would have been my automatic reaction to a question like the one Gary posed: coming up with a laundry list of all the reasons why I shouldn't be proud of myself.

I can't say I feel truly "proud" of this development, as I think it took me way too damned long to reach this state... but I do see it as a step in the right direction, a sign of hope.

Re: The brain, she does not wish to function.

[similiesslip.livejournal.com]

YES! Managing to overcome automatic reactions that put yourself down is VERY HARD and you did GREAT! I would say that is DEFINITELY something to be proud of!:)

Re: The brain, she does not wish to function.

[pixiebelle.livejournal.com]

Trust me, I understand this comment all too well. Part of the reason I can't list anything in proud of? Because my self-esteem issues are on high alert these days. And just reading some of these comments... I started thinking about what's wrong with me and what I don't have to be proud of. So that part of your comment hit fairly close to home.

I've been inspired by your growth, most of the time I'm better than I was too. I can't be proud of that though because I'm so far away from where I still need to be. But there's always hope, right?

Re: The brain, she does not wish to function.

[jacq22.livejournal.com]

Just keep going along the path, shutting your ears to those dissenters. Hope is rising....keep at it, and be very proud.