I'm seeing the game itself as a playground, and because the bar has been raised, it's dismantling the playground bit by bit. And I'm standing there, watching it, half in shock, and half trying not to weep.
::hug::
I get it. The people who liked to have fun don't hang anymore. There are probably a lot of reasons for it.
Sometimes Idol reminds me of this festival we have here in town. The Red River Revel started years ago as a craft and music festival. People brought their crafts and put together their talent and signed up down at the riverfront and had snow cones and shopped and sang and enjoyed the October shift from "sofuckinghot" to "is it going to rain?"
Each year it got a little more organized, which was good, and the word got out so there were more crafts people, which was great. Then there were so many people interested it was hard to fit them in and things got competitive, and it wasn't a community thing because most of the spots were out of town professional artist people. And then somewhere along the way it became an organization. It became an entity. And now there are big names and everything is polished, and there's still some time for local people, but during the off hours at the tiny stage on the edge of the grounds.
And I'm not saying Idol has gone that far, by any means. But the close-knit feeling hasn't been there for me this season. And there's a competitiveness that sometimes I feel like X person is SO talented that I shouldn't bother trying, or that people will wonder why I bother or what I'm doing here. Because I'm homegrown handmade in a field of people who are ar-TEESTs.
Except it's all baggage. It's my baggage and it's their baggage and the arteests aren't as arteesty as they think they are sometimes. :) And there's something pretty awesome about homegrown handmadewithlove. But it can feel like oil and water, and Idol has a place for both, and Idol changes with the people in it.
I honestly think this season was too big and too long. Too many people to read everyone in the beginning and too fucking long to sit on the sidelines and stay involved. I mean a few of us did it, but we're special. :)
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::hug::
I get it. The people who liked to have fun don't hang anymore. There are probably a lot of reasons for it.
Sometimes Idol reminds me of this festival we have here in town. The Red River Revel started years ago as a craft and music festival. People brought their crafts and put together their talent and signed up down at the riverfront and had snow cones and shopped and sang and enjoyed the October shift from "sofuckinghot" to "is it going to rain?"
Each year it got a little more organized, which was good, and the word got out so there were more crafts people, which was great. Then there were so many people interested it was hard to fit them in and things got competitive, and it wasn't a community thing because most of the spots were out of town professional artist people. And then somewhere along the way it became an organization. It became an entity. And now there are big names and everything is polished, and there's still some time for local people, but during the off hours at the tiny stage on the edge of the grounds.
And I'm not saying Idol has gone that far, by any means. But the close-knit feeling hasn't been there for me this season. And there's a competitiveness that sometimes I feel like X person is SO talented that I shouldn't bother trying, or that people will wonder why I bother or what I'm doing here. Because I'm homegrown handmade in a field of people who are ar-TEESTs.
Except it's all baggage. It's my baggage and it's their baggage and the arteests aren't as arteesty as they think they are sometimes. :) And there's something pretty awesome about homegrown handmadewithlove. But it can feel like oil and water, and Idol has a place for both, and Idol changes with the people in it.
I honestly think this season was too big and too long. Too many people to read everyone in the beginning and too fucking long to sit on the sidelines and stay involved. I mean a few of us did it, but we're special. :)
Anyway. I get it. ::hug::